beauty

Now that I'm a grown young adult, I see a lot of my friends or other girls who emphasize A LOT on beauty. And I mean the full glam- Dyson hair wrap, designer perfume, Sephora makeup, brand name bags, etc. 

I never saw the importance of outer beauty, ever since I was a little girl. I never ever liked to wear dresses, wear fancy outfits, or put my hair in an intricate hairdo. I hated drawing attention to myself- I know all my friends always say I like to dress down more than dress up. 

I think I feel very insecure and not like myself when I dress up. I feel like a little girl playing dress up in her mother's clothes. Sometimes I feel like everyone is looking at me funny but I know it's just me. I feel most like myself when I'm wearing pants or a sweater. 

But as I grew older, I started to get insecure about my femininity. I see another girl with curled hair, nails done, high heels, and a fancy outfit, and I wonder, "Is this what guys like? Is this how society thinks I should be?"

I started to question my own outfits, which mostly included my brother's old oversized shirts with a pair of pants I received as a Christmas present in 2015. It's not like I didn't have the money, I always worked hard. But beauty products or clothes were never the first thing that came to mind when I received a paycheck. 

My first thought is to save it. Then, I would probably purchase a new book I want to read. Or pay for my art lessons with my teacher. Or pay for a membership for pilates and yoga. Or use my saved money to purchase gifts for my loved ones. 

I try not to get attached to my appearance because it's so temporary. One day, we're all going to grow old and wrinkly, and we won't be "beautiful and young" anymore. Unless you get Botox and a lot of surgery. 

I've come to realize that America definitely preys on a girl's vulnerability to make money off of you. Especially now that we are in the digital age and everyone is on social media, it's so hard to escape it. 

Insecure about your acne? Get this new skincare serum! 

Worried about your eye bags? Buy this new eye cream! 

Want to emphasize your eyelashes? Try this new mascara! 

It's so easy for young girls to fall into this trap. I know I definitely do. 

That's all for now. Thanks for reading! 

Karina 

I love the quote I added above. I read it on a calendar at work before and I fell in love with it. Outer beauty will fade as you age but what doesn't fade is your inner beauty, your heart.