art

 Since I always write about serious things, I wanted to write about something happier. I wanted to talk about art and how it shapes who I am :) 

When I feel the need to be creative, it feels like an itch. It's like something fuzzy, warm, and bright wants to come out of me, like a little ball of light. I'll be sitting in class or watching a movie or reading and then all of a sudden, I feel this strong urge to make something. 

It's like there is something in my chest that needs to be expressed in ways that words or gestures cannot convey. I feel a bit restless and antsy, as if I have a secret I've been keeping and I cannot tell anyone. 

Whether it is a sketch, a doodle, a painting, writing or video editing, I feel complete as soon as I start doing it. It's almost like taking a breath of fresh air when I'm in a stuffy room. 

I feel empty at first, like the feeling of being hungry and craving a chocolate cake so badly you can't think of anything else. Or the feeling of needing a hug from one of your bestest friends. And when you finally get it, you feel whole. 

I think what I love about art is the freedom I feel when creating it. You are allowed to do whatever you want, make up whatever you want. You are the captain, you are in control. You are allowed to let your imagination conjure anything it wants, let your creativity bring out the best of you. 

It's like a drug. You can't stop when you start. I feel at peace, calm, and grounded, soaking up the silence as I work.

I feel most like myself when I am creating art. I feel that I express myself best that way. I feel like this is what I was meant to do in this life, finally being able to breathe in the chaotic world.

You learn so much about yourself from each piece you complete and to me, I feel most myself when I am painting. 

Art, to me, is like creating a physical representation of how I am feeling, a portrayal of my imagination. It's the closest thing I can use to show what colors I see in my dreams. I think it's one of the most beautiful things created on this earth. 

Everyone's art is different, and you can see the artist's emotions, ideas, and thoughts in each piece they create. Every color, every stroke portrays their inner being. At least thats what I think. 

From every painting I create, I see that I use bold colors compared to my art teacher, which is accurate since most people describe me as an outgoing and bubbly person. 

Painting or sketching to me is like taking a photo but with my eyes. I get to use colors I see and draw things what they look like to me. 

Next kind of art I want to try is a preformance art. Singing, piano, guitar, something like that.